Beautiful Beginnings

Life is a wonderfully complex thing. I can't help but laugh when I think of all the dimensions God gave to me. Not even I, the owner and operator of my brain, can understand it. It's a part of His humor, I guess, to watch me constantly trying to figure myself out. I think it's going to take my whole life and then some to come to any sort of worthy conclusion concerning the intricate weavings of my mind and emotions. Thankfully, I am quite certain that everything happens for a reason.

So why is this all worthy of mention? I am challenged by the thought that my Creator gave me each of my characteristics for a reason; He even allowed each of my flaws for a reason. It would be contradictory of everything that I stand for to not search for answers to the hard questions- such as why the Lord has permitted struggle and strife. I was once a small, scared little girl wondering why God allowed certain things to happen to me. I faced many things that, at the time, I would have given anything to change. When I look back upon these first almost 20 years of my life, I am able to confidently say, beyond the shadow of any doubt, that each hardship I have faced has been only to reveal in new and more intimate ways the deep and unrelenting love that my Savior has for me. I am drawn into deeper thankfulness each time I am given a fresh perspective on the events in my past. It is the most beautiful thing I could ever ask for.

I say none of this in hopes of pity or judgment. Instead, I hope to draw attention to the fact that the Lord is only allowing in your life what will bring the intensification of your process of sanctification. Sometimes, we need to be flat on our faces with nowhere else to go for Him to grab hold of our attention. My prayer for this blog is that I could be a source of encouragement or wisdom to any ear willing to listen. I don’t claim to be wise or have anything of real significance to say, but I claim to know Jesus Christ, and I will proclaim Him until the day that I die. These complicated thoughts and emotions that I experience, I trust, are all for a reason. So, here’s to putting them to what I pray to be good use.